Ten years ago...
We were stationed at Vance Air Force Base. Ronnie and I had been married almost 9 months. The morning started like it always did, he got up at some unforsaken time and went off to the base where he was a student pilot. I got ready and dressed in my best suit and went off to work at Express. I remember that I even had the forethought to take something out for dinner (unusual for me, normally I would head home at lunch to do it). I did my quick drive to work and sat down at my desk.
While turning on my computer, the phone rang. It was my co-worker's husband saying something just exploded at the Twin Towers. I said, what are you talking about? He reiterated, there was a bomb or something. Quick turn on channel whatever out of OKC. I said okay and hung up. Immediately, I walked into my office manager's office and told her what had just happened. We went back and turned on the tv in the breakroom.... just in time to see the second plane fly into the second tower.
I thought to myself, this has got to be an accident. Were the air traffic controllers at JFK compromised? Did the auto-pilot on the airplanes go wacky? Stunned and amazed, we could only just sit and watch the mayhem unfold live on television. Then the news then reported the Pentagon was hit. I remember feeling the lump in my throat, the uneasiness in my stomach. This was done on purpose.
The phone was ringing again and it was Ronnie. All he said was, do you know what has happened. I replied, yes, I'm watching it. He said, I may not be home tonight. I said okay, I love you. He said he loved me too and asked me to call our friend's wife for him because he couldn't get ahold of her. I said I would. And that was that..... I hung up not knowing when the next time I would talk to Ronnie would be.
I called April and told her the message. She was as stunned as I was and her workplace had come to a standstill as well. I told her she and Emma (her two year old) had a place to stay with me if need be.
The rest of the day was a daze.... We tried to work but couldn't. I went to a Chamber event, but it was all we could talk about. Oklahoma was still raw from the bombing in OKC in '95. There were a lot of tears and hugs and pats on the back. I remember the looks I got, me, the lone military wife in the sea of locals. The "your husband has to set this straight" look and my "I know, it's his job" reaction. The day finally ended and I went home. The dinner I had laid out went back in the fridge for when Ronnie came home. Best to be saved for a time where he's home and I'm actually hungry.
He eventually came home that night, hours after I was home alone with my thoughts. I was never so happy to see him, but I knew what was to come. I knew that his job would take him right to the heart of what just attacked us. I knew this wasn't the only time that I get a 5 minute phone call and never know when I was going to talk to him again. More importantly, I knew that it was his duty to go and fight it, as it was mine to let him go.
It's been ten years... and I still remember it like yesterday. Because forgetting is not an option.